Keane frontman Tom Chaplin has spoken exclusively to Q about the drug problems that forced him to cancel a world tour and enter The Priory last August.
In a startlingly candid interview, he explains how a friend he made while undergoing treatment was recently found dead: "That scared the shit out of me. One drink is all it takes. That opens the gates to the other stuff... a place I don't want to go."
The "other stuff" Chaplin refers to was cocaine, and lots of it. His lowest ebb was during the recording of second album Under The Iron Sea, when his addiction made him a prisoner in his own home.
"Tim [Rice-Oxley] would come to my house and I'd refuse to answer the door. I was spending a lot of time crying in front of Cash In The Attic. I felt really depressed. I was taking a lot of drugs, and drinking to alleviate the anxiety of the drugs. It was miserable. I was ruined."
Now on the road to recovery, despite having "fucked up a couple of times" since leaving The Priory, Chaplin admits he misses the "roller-coaster days" which addiction gave him.
"My life has no colour. It feels really flat." But, he says, he's still determined to "leave the dark days behind."
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10:27 AM | 30/04/2007
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